The User and the Loser

I know two people: one is a user and the other is a loser

The user is calculating and measured in everything she does. She has to control everyone and everything around her. In another context she would be a slaver. She weaves webs around people to ensnare them or manipulate them into furthering her agenda. She follows the rules when it suits her but crosses the line when necessary. Manipulation and deceit are the tools of her trade. You can hear it in her whining voice and inappropriate falling intonation when she gives you a command disguised as a question; and in the clattering of the crockery as she weaves her web in the kitchen sink. She thinks she is clever. She is an Atheist because she believes she is clever and doesn’t need the help of a supernatural entity. She loves herself. She loves food and plants but she is a hard-nosed bitch who eats like a ravenous horse when on her own.

She is afraid of the future.

The loser is more open but more cautious and obsessed with his past mistakes. He is an idealist who has never quite learned to live up to, nor give up, his ideals. He is an atheist at present because he does not believe that a ‘Good’ entity could create such a cruel thing as a human being. He loves and despises humanity. He loves birds and trees  but hates himself, sticks his finger in his ear and grunts like a pig when his throat itches no matter who is in the room.

He is afraid of the past and the future.

Both of them live in fear and neither of them live in the present for more than a few minutes.