2009 Don and El nino

A demon who still annoys me a lot is "el nino".

Ever since I have been little el nino has bothered me.

Even before I was a teenager, I can remember the panic rising in me when my brother would bait me in an argument. El nino made me defend myself against  my big brother.

But as a teenager in school life too el nino began to interfere. If someone laughed at my school rugby team, or my own football team,  or my country, el nino threw a tantrum and created havoc all round him.

If anyone got in his way they were for it. El nino was wild and reckless. When I was eleven after an argument with my brother I remember pursuing him at speed from the kitchen into another room - flailing my belt wildly at him. He was too quick for me and just got the door closed in time for me to embed the buckle in it. There are still the marks there to this day!

As I grew up el nino squeezed himself into many other aspects of my life. He became attached to my ego so that by the time I was a teenager, anyone who criticised me became the object of el nino's wrath. we became inseparable. I had grown up.


I was a hypersensitive teenager.

Later in adult life el nino created havoc in my professional life when he urged me to make some pretty rash and ill-considered decisions which I later regretted.

When El nino took a ride, the panic was unstoppable. There was no way of stopping him. I even felt sorry for him at times. I just hung on for dear life until he cooled down.

Nowadays, el nino still bugs me. He has taken to stopping me from sleeping.

In the evenings he also sometimes likes to chill me with waves of loneliness, panic and fear about some small unimportant thing. Maybe to do with the next day's work.

Before a really important event-like an interview, or first day at a new job at work, or the beginning of new class el nino can be troublesome. He can be very cruel. I will break out into a cold sweat and almost shudder with anxiety. When this happens I sometimes have quieten him down with some pills.

That calms him down.

He doesn't like the pills.



but el nino has his good side. He is passionate, determined and committed. If he is treated with respect he can be very loyal and show a lot of initiative.

He is  also capable of showing compassion and mercy and springing real surprises on everyone around him from time to time. He can make people smile and people forgave him.

He has charm.